When I began writing my first draft of this essay, I put a lot of thought into what I wanted to say and what story I wanted to tell. To be honest, when this essay was first introduced to this class, I was annoyed to even think about why I write. Writing has always been my escape, my way to release my pent up thoughts. Needless to say, thinking about why I write wasn’t something I was keen on doing. The ironic part is, when I was thinking about why I don’t want to write this paper, it made me realize how much writing has done for me.

I’ve been enthralled by literature for as long as I can remember, which is why I decided to study it throughout my college career. I think I was twelve when I really began to enjoy reading and writing. I was one of those misfit kids that couldn’t get along with anyone and lost myself within the pages of other people’s stories.

As a youngin, my first real obsession was with autobiographies. I think I hated my life so much that reading about the lives of others took me away from myself. I would gravitate towards the autobiographies of musicians, novelists, and actors or whatever else I could get my hands on. I was the nerdiest thief alive and would steal books when I didn’t have the money to pay for them.

At the age of fifteen, I was sent to a boarding school in bum-fuck-nowhere Texas, because in the words of my mother, I was becoming a “reckless teenager.” Coming into a house of eight girls that already knew one another, made it even more difficult for me to fit in. In order to release some of my feelings, my therapist recommended that I start journaling every day, so I did. Journaling helped me to realize how therapeutic writing can really be. I fell absolutely in love with it.

Writing became my safe haven. When I felt like there was no way out of my dark mind, writing was the cracked door emanating light. My life was always a series of me having to force myself to do things I didn’t want to do. So, when I decided how natural writing was for me, I felt I had found my long-lost sister.

Writing continues to amplify my life every day. Without my passion for writing I would never have had the opportunity to engage in the exchange for change program. I would never have had the opportunity to share my writing with all of you fine people. What I love most about writing is that it has and continues to take me on a path of new experiences and that I am so grateful for.